Perspective.

Well so much for the awesome week. Today I was informed by Emily that several of her friends don't like me. They say that I come off as a pompous dick that thinks I'm better than them. I like her friends. I have nothing against any of them they are all good people. I don't think I am better than them or anyone for that matter. It's all in perspective. Specifically when it comes to thinking that anyone is better than anyone else. Perspective is a big deal to me and I believe that if people would just think from another point of view that life would be easier for everyone. Unfortunately it's not that easy. Everyone gets caught up and forgets to think how you make other people feel when you talk to them, and the people who are getting treated less than fairly do the same in thinking that they are being treated that way for a specific reason. This is exactly what happened. I have this thing where I correct people. Most of the time I don't realize I do it, but I guess I do it a lot. This irritated people, and I can honestly say I understand why they are irritated. They then, from what I am lead to believe, have grown to think that I have this notion that I am better than them, which is also completely understandable. I would probably react the same way if I were in their shoes. Let me reiterate and just state again that I don't think I am better than anyone else and if I seem that way I truthfully don't mean it. I know it's how I came across and I continued to do it even after hints were made but I didn't realize this was the idea that was being cast over me. I would like to sincerely apologize to anyone who I may have done this to. Even if I have done this without realizing it, it is still my fault. I know first impressions are hard to change but I am going to try and change anyone's who thought of me like this. Emily is important to me, and her friends are important to her. Which makes them equally important to me. I never knew I had that kind of effect over people and I am actually very embarrassed about it. It's particularly embarrassing to me because I pride myself on being a firm believer of the saying "Walk a mile in someone's shoes.". I always try to view things from another perspective and keep an open mind but sometimes I just overlook things. I would like to apologize again because this whole situation has made me feel like such a prick, and the feeling is completely deserved in my part for acting like such. I may have acted like a prick but I can assure you that I am not a full time prick. I now understand that my personality can come off strong and things I say which may not be a big deal to me can be huge to someone else. When I correct and nitpick like I do I don't mean for it to be in a hurtful way. I guess it's just how I am. No one has ever complained about it before so this is completely new to me. I would like the chance for people to change their mind about me because I feel as if people haven't  gotten to know me well enough to know that when I do some things I don't mean for them to sound like they do. Most of the people I talk to as in close friends and such, have known me for 10 plus years. I know how to deal with them and they know how to deal with me. But when it comes to new people I guess I'm just not so good at being a welcoming person. I forget that not everyone knows me as well as other people do. I now understand that I seem like I judge people when really I try my hardest not to. I know that most of the people I have done this to will probably not read this. But if I can change one opinion about me it will be worth it. And Emily, I love you.