Laborer

As I lay here, trapped in perfection I realize my surroundings. A rhythm banging in my ears deafening my perception to what happens around me. A repeated impact in my hands as cold steel meets precious metal. The neverending recoil of the collision shakes me to my very core, leaving my legs sore and quivering. Yet I continue on as this labor, is a labor of love. The crashes somehow seem to sync with the rythmic banging in my ears. The cold metallic clangs and the ear shattering booms become one along with the small flashes of blue. My hands, aching and red, begin to tighten into wretched shapes as my muscles tense. Yet I still keep pounding away. The others tell me to stop. They can't take the incessant noise, the clash of passion meeting my only outlet. I will not stop. I can not stop. The twangs and roaring booms must go on. After hours of the work I sit my utensils down. Heavy eyes and throbbing limbs, I sleep. Putting my work on a small hiatus until the following day. Then again it starts with rapid clangs sprays of blue light and thundering tones till my body can't take it anymore.

A Long Awaited Return.

It's been a while since my last post and I really have no excuse for my absence. I could blame it on a lot of things but I'm not going to. Things have been difficult lately. It seems like everything around me is in fast forward and I'm just stuck at regular speed. Most things seem like they are deteriorating right in front of me. The only things that keep me sane anymore are Emily and my hobbies. With the exception of Emily, everything is different. Nothing feels the same as it used to. I'm afraid that I am changing. The only problem is that I don't think I like who I am changing into. As much as I hate to blame this on anything I think the major cause of all of this is where I live. This house, this environment is suffocating me. I need to get out, I need to escape. The only problem is that I can't. I just don't have the means to right now. The best I can do is put on my headphones drown out everything and keep my head up. So I guess that's what I'm going to do to the best of my ability anyway. I just hope things start looking up soon...