A day late and a dollar short.

Happy belated Thanksgiving everyone. I have never been a huge fan of Thanksgiving, or the holiday season in a whole for that matter. It always seems like I get depressed this time of year. I think it has something to do with me being around my family, which doesn't understand me at all. I can't help thinking that the more time I spend with them the more they seem to dislike me. Don't get me wrong, not all my family sucks. Actually its the majority that I don't mind being around all that much. It's just the one or two few that really get to me for some reason. I think that those select group of relatives really developed the deep hatred of college in me. I remember them asking me what I was going to do after I graduate, and upon me telling them they just faked a smile and nodded like they were assuring a small child that everything was going to be ok as the world was falling apart around them. I remember hearing them say that they expect me to go nowhere with anything I do in my life behind my back. Oh well they can't all be winners, right? This particular annual gathering of relatives was rather uneventful and overall not completely unbearable. The lack of support for my vegetarianism was expected. I should be used to it by now but I still get the urge to bust open a verbal can of whoop ass on people when they make a crack at my eating habits. I did get a lot of comments on how much weight I have lost though. Not compliments mind you, just people saying that I don't look the same as I did before. I weighed myself for the first time in about 11 months. Turns out I lost 42 pounds or so. I feel like I can lose another 20. The day after Thanksgiving I had to work. It was a normal day at work nothing good really but nothing bad either. That night I went out to the mall and hung out with Emily and her friend Cheyenne. I was surprised to see that I didn't know anyone working in any of the stores with the exception of Clares. I bought a mini remote control helicopter from the sporting goods store. It was a good purchase if you ask me. After the mall Emily came over and stayed at my house. This was the best part of my weekend. We just laid around and watched movies the whole time. I love it when she stays at my house. I wish she could do it more often. I never thought I could feel so happy being at home when she is there. Unfortunately all good things have to come to an end and Emily had to go home. The next day my mom and my two sisters went shopping. Overall it was a successful trip besides the minor meltdown that lead to an argument between my mother and my sister in the middle of the mall. I ended up getting some new pants and a few shirts and a coat. I can't wear any of it until Christmas except the coat. I picked myself up a new yoyo too. Yet another 20 bucks well spent. I just can't seem to hold on to money very well when I have it in my pocket. I have to many interests and hobbies that I can spend so much money on. At least I have something to keep myself entertained. I have more free time than I think I do. Usually I spend it sitting on the computer or doing something else nonconstructive. I think I might venture outside of my room more often. Usually being outside of my room leads to me getting irritated with people but I think I will give it a shot. Today was an ok day. Some things happened that really put me in a sub par mood though. I have a feeling it will take me a while to recover from that. Time heals all I suppose. All I can do is wait for myself to get over it. I can't help feeling like it was all my fault but then again I still feel like I should defend my point. I don't know what to do but at least it is all behind me now. That's about all I have to say for tonight. Oh and baby cakes, I love you. Good luck with your audition tomorrow!